I felt guilty and bothered because of what i've done earlier. I almost committed something bad. Andun na, malapit na talaga, well just thinking of it is already a sin.Thank God, I was able to control and stop myself from doing it. Kakadaan ko palang naman ng Redemptorist Church tapos I was tempted easily. Buti na lang talaga at hindi natuloy...Im sorry but I cannot post the real story behind it. It was too sensitive and confidential... Im just blogging it, because somehow it eases the guilt that i feel right now. I need to release this feeling. I need to get this out of my mind. Im trying to avoid it. I really want to, pero sobra talagang lakas ng tukso. Ayoko na pero bakit madalas mangyari kahit ano pang iwas ko, choice ko talaga 'to o natutukso lang talaga ko? Sakit na ba itong maituturing na wala nang igagaling? O anino ito ng nakaraan ko na kailangan kong harapin at labanan? Sino ang pwede kong lapitan? Kailangan ko ba ng tulong ng iba o ako mismo sa sarili ko, kaya ko 'to? Ang hirap talaga...